Well, looks like I haven’t blogged for quite a while. I guess I’m not much of a journaler, even though I love writing stories and what not. Anyway, things have been pretty “off the rocker” in my life lately. God has been trying to work – or should I say – He has been working – but I haven’t been feeling Him. Unfortunately I, and probably like many others, tend to base my relationship with the Lord on whether or not I can “feel” Him. It’s really bad. And, lately, I haven’t. I find myself in church on Sundays, at youth on Fridays, and in chapel at school on Thursdays… and I try so hard to get myself into it, to really truly focus on God – but I just can’t get to that ‘place’. It’s disheartening.
The verse which keeps reminding me that the Lord is present no matter what is Psalm 139:7, “Where can I go from your Spirit? Where can I flee from your presence?” It’s a reminder that even if I can’t feel God, that He is always there and I shouldn’t base my relationship with Him solely on feeling like I stated above. It’s hard but I’m aware of it and changing my way of thinking (which also relates to Romans 12:2, “Do not conform any longer to the patterns of this world, but instead be transformed by the renewing of your mind.” This is my life verse).
Lord, sanctify my heart. Speak to me and allow me to see that You are with me, and always will be – for all the days of my life, to eternity. You are my rock and my Salvation; I only want to grow in You more and more. Thankyou for Who You are, God. Love You lots. Amen.
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