Well, well, well.

So, it's been an interesting couple of days. Last night I started to develop a bit of a sore throat... and it full blown hit me today, and it's not fun. No voice or anything, and coughing lots.
Aaand I was running a bunch of errands with my mom today, dealing with Future Shop Customer Service people... that was an experience. Aaaaand, at the same time I checked out the beautiful DSLR's, which I just CANNOT get off my mind... however, I must wait until I have the money... it won't be long though.

Also, I found out in an email that the dream I have of being on the PLBC Tour Team can't happen this year. I don't blame anyone but myself for it, and I know that I really let myself down. Because even though it's a huge passion of mine to go on that, and change lives, I must first have my life in order. But I am really, really... really... disappointed. I look up to that team so much, last year I looked up to them, and I look up to the names on the list again this year.
Maybe... maybe... just one day, hopefully next year, I'll be able to jump for joy and praise the Lord for being able to go on tour.

Other than all that stuff, God's really been working in me lately. He didn't show up for a while though... and now I'm just trying to power through all my work and make things better for myself and others. I want to serve Him with all that I am, and yeah...

I don't know. I'm just... a little messed up these days.

A fellow student of mine asked me yesterday... as I walked in to the library, I didn't say hi to anyone, I was just minding my own business (but having a particularly bad day and feeling like a failure) and went up to him to renew a book. Immediately, he asked me, "When do you think Jesus is coming back Amalea?" and I was puzzled as to why he was asking... so I said I don't know, soon. He replied with "How soon?" and again I didn't know what to say. He continued on, "Do you think He's coming back tonight? Would you be ready if He came back tonight?" and I was left with a distraught look on my face. I really didn't know what to say, but that guy sure hit home. The Lord spoke through him to communicate with me, I guess, and it was pretty neat to actually see someone SHOW that they cared about how I was feeling. It was a totally random act and I know that it was because I'm not feeling "completely there" with life right now. It's all messed up.

Anyways, that's about it for now. I don't know if anyone even ever reads this stuff, but I'm sorry that a lot of it is negative - that's just how things have been lately.